Blossoming

I haven't been on zaadz in a while but felt called to it now. I found a dear acquaintance just by chance and that told me - it's time to come back to zaadz and see what goodies you can find!!

The most exciting thing going on in my life is my relationship with myself. Ah-ha, you thought I'd say my new boyfriend, didn't you. Well, that is just as exciting. But not the most important.

I learned, finally, after 28 and some odd years, to love MYSELF first and foremost. To be compassionate and loving toward myself. I was in my bedroom crying over my mother's death and no one was home to call. I had become addicted to OTHER PEOPLE'S company. I had not learned how to soothe myself.

I sat on my meditation pillow, turned on some music, wrapped my arms around myself and rocked back and forth, sobbing. It must have been an hour or so but finally I stopped crying. And do you know what? I felt *better*. A different kind of better. A kind of better that no one else could have given me. I LOVED myself for the first time! It felt empowering.

I've been doing a  lot of reading about Abraham and their teachings, and I felt directly connected to Source energy, that which some call God, some call their Higher Self. I felt I could do ANYTHING.

And only a few days later, after loving MYSELF FIRST.... I met Jason.... the man I would come to love with all my heart after only a month.

And now it is July 25th, a Wednesday. Jason is in L.A. visiting his family and I am set to join him for 5 days on August 7th. I am taking these two weeks and refamiliarizing myself with myself. For sometimes you tend to lose yourself in the beginning of a love relationship. I'm meditating again, writing more, seeing friends I've neglected. A truly fertile time for me.

I hope to be on zaadz more often now.

Thanks for reading!

Lisa Marie