Breaking Up is Hard to Do

And so, the first man I fall in love with breaks my heart. He broke up with me three days ago. I am just shattered. I am confused, bewildered, heartbroken. My Shaman friend says that I'm having such bad luck (luck?) (I'll be losing my temp job shortly here, too, and am having money problems) recently b/c I'm "Shifting"..... my negative attributes are leaving my consciousness.... and I am making way for the light.

I've been fighting all of my life. Fighting to stay alive amidst terrible depression. I am tired of fighting. I want to thrive. I want to love. I want to be loved.

Despite how I feel sometimes, I want to live.